Rollercoaster
Some days are just plain tough. And, other days are great. I feel like I'm on a rollercoaster. The ups and downs have been confusing and tiring. How long will this last? Forever? Who knows? I didn't even buy tickets for this crazy ride. But, apparently I was meant to go on it. For what reason, I will never know. All I can do is hold on, try and find the good along the way, and wait until it stops.
Unfortunately, I don't think we ever get to get off this ride. The only thing that changes is the length between falls. I wish we had never gotten on this ride at all, but we do it because of the love we have for our boys. xo
ReplyDeleteJust when everything is going fine, you turn and are presented with a reminder that your precious Jaden is not in your arms. Sometimes it is hard to be happy for the people who have what you want most. I feel confidently though that you will have everything in life that you really want and Jaden will smile down from Heaven and send his love to you.
ReplyDeleteHey Nicole :) I'm just hearing of your story and want you to know you are not alone in all of this. A similar thing happened with my daughter, Lizzy, a few years ago. Our angels are together now playing, laughing, and watching over us. It takes some time, and it is a rollercoaster, but it does get easier. I'm here for you girl, anytime. Xoxo, Meg
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